“i heard that he exaggerated the truth and tried to pass it off as non-fiction”
bash said this to me as we passed farley mowatt‘s star on the canadian walk of fame. in retrospect, i think it’s better that i’m reading this one after the last testament because the parallels are quite strong. i can see how someone who has gone through this ordeal with the folks at AA wouldn’t believe in higher powers, and the scenes of his body’s treason during detox (including his no-anesthesia root canals) are a lot like the aftermath of having a tonne of falling shattered glass removed from one’s flesh and staying alive. i’m still Working on The riddle of capitalizing Seemingly random words, but i haven’t quite Cracked it yet. oh-and i love how he likens a letter from his lady to a drug deal-that’s how illicit love is to an addict….
“I have been to AA meetings and they have left me cold. I find the philosophy to be one of replacement. Replacement of one addiction with another addiction. Replacement of a chemical for a God and a Meeting. The Meetings themselves make me sick. Too much whining, too much complaining, too much blaming. Too much bullshit about Higher Powers. There is no Higher Power or any God who is responsible for what I do and for what I have done and for who I am. There is no Higher Power or any God who will cure me. There is no Meeting where any amount of whining, complaining and blaming is going to make me feel any better.” (70)
“He decided at that instant to turn his will over and place himself unreservedly under God’s care and direction. He never drank again, he developed the Twelve Steps and the concept of Alcoholics Anonymous, and he devoted his life to spreading the word. It is a touching story, and it is written more to convince than to tell. I am not convinced. No way, not at all. Not at all.” (71)
“I think God is something that People use to avoid reality. I think faith allows People to reject what is right in front of our eyes, which is that this thing, this life, this existence, this consciousness, or whatever word you want to use for it, is all we have, and all we’ll ever have. I think People have faith because they want and need to believe in something, whatever that something is, because life can be hard and depressing and brutal if you don’t.” (197)