“do you know the difference between males and females?”
“females have babies and can’t run very fast”
“um, ok-that’s interesting, what’s a more basic distinction?”
“males can fight and females can’t”
sigh. the 7-year-old prophet has revealed volumes. i’ve been hyperaware of men leering out of cars and hanging around verbally harassing women-i suppose this is where the socialization of gender works on many platforms to inform life outside the library, literally and literally. i’ve just noticed the rash of books that i’ve read as of late that involve dance, either literally or figuratively, to suggest a gateway or substitute for sex, or a lack thereof. a physical performance associated with sexuality because it is transmitted via the medium of human bodies, and the terrain delicate and vulnerable to betrayal due to its unruly nature. jillian lauren and cody diablo do not report stories of violence from clients, but that may be the nature of the settings of their work. a sub-theme of the lincoln lawyer (my choice for last night to accompany my homemade chicken soup post-art show and couch-sleeping dogsit), intended or otherwise, is the interlacing of money and power and sexwork.
“I left New York for San Francisco soon after I returned from Brunei, and I never did make it back. Leave New York and it leaves you behind so quickly. New York is like the lover you leave, the one who still someone retains the upper hand for the rest of your life. When you pass him on the street, you will recognize him before he recognizes you. You will have to decide whether or not to call out, It’s me. It’s Jill. You will read his name in the paper and your body will remember.
You will watch on television as thick pillars of black smoke rise into the air and you will remember New York, like someone just ran a plane into your heart. But New York, even at its moment of greatest pain, will not remember you. And though I like my view so much better since I left, it sometimes still smarts when I realize I’ve been forgotten.” (338)
when we make it to the otherside, that’s when we’ll settle up the score.